Reading: Psalm 32
Like the psalmist, sometimes we hold onto our sin. We make a conscious choice not to come before God. Sometimes this is because even though we know our sin, we hold onto it because we are not ready to repent or because we know that the temptation or the sin is still greater than our will or faith. Sometimes we do not recognize our sin. As our faith matures, the concept of what we see as sin also develops. We come to realize more and more how far short we fall as we come to know and understand God more and more.
When we hold onto our sin, there are ramifications. Not confessing our sin can weigh upon us emotionally and spiritually and can run us down physically. Unconfessed sin is a barrier between God and us and inhibits a true relationship with God. Our heart must be right with God before we can come to Him in prayer and worship. If we try to do so with sin upon us, it is false prayer or worship. Just as God could not look upon Jesus on the cross as He bore our sins, God cannot be in our presence if we are not righteous. To be righteous we must be made clean.
The reality is that God already knows our sins. The Lord of heaven is also the Lord of the earth. There is nothing that escapes Him. We may try to convince ourselves that God doe snot know our sins, but we are only fooling ourselves. When we humble ourselves, come before God, and pour out our sins, we are blessed by His grace, mercy, and love. Not only that. God also removes the guilt and shame of our sins.
When we are in a right relationship with God, He blesses and instructs and loves us. When we are in a right relationship with God, we wonder why we would ever lived any other way. When sin is upon us, may we go to God often – whenever necessary – so that we may live all of our days in His presence and in the light of His love.