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Generous

Reading: Matthew 20:1-16

Matthew 20:16 – “So those who are last will be first. And those who are first will be last.”

Returning to the parable of the workers in the vineyard, today we focus on the landowner’s response to the grumbling of those who thought they were first. The landowner reminds them first of their agreement. They are asked to take what is theirs and to go. The landowner asserts that it is their right to give as they want to give. The parable itself ends with this question: “Or are you resentful because I’m generous?” As I read this ending today, I am reminded of connections to these stories of Jesus: the story of the rich man and Lazarus and the story of the thief on the cross.

Shifting from story teller to teacher, Jesus says, “So those who are last will be first. And those who are first will be last.” The ones who think they deserve more grace, more of God’s love, a better place at the table… will be and often are upset, disappointed, saddened when someone who hasn’t been as faithful, who hasn’t served as much, or who is clearly a greater sinner receives the same grace, love, forgiveness… from God. It is hard to reckon in our human hearts and minds that such as these might need to be lifted from “last” more than those who already know and receive God’s love…

There is also a call for us to be more like the landowner. In this life there are times when we can be generous with our money or with our time, talents, and other resources. Surely we’ll help a good friend in a time of need. But are we as quick to help that grumpy neighbor or that ornery co-worker? These who we see as “last” maybe should be “first” when it comes to the living out of our faith. And this would not primarily be for their benefit.

Prayer: Lord God, we are quick to receive when you love, forgive, encourage, or lift us up. We’re even grateful when a family member or good friend receives from you. Help us to be at least as grateful when one considered the least is also blessed. And with this gratitude, lead us to be generous with our love, grace, forgiveness… Thank you, Lord. Amen.


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What We Needed

Reading: Exodus 16:13-15

Exodus 16:15 – “This is the bread that the Lord has given you to eat.”

Photo credit: Kate Remmer

The things that God and Moses and Aaron have been talking about for our first two days of reading in Exodus 16 finally happen. In the evening, quail covers the camp. They can gather as much meat as they desire. God provides in abundance. But in the morning there is a layer of dew all around the camp. I imagine this looking like a very, very low-hanging layer of thick fog. It is enough to hide the “thin flakes” lying on the desert floor. The quail they recognized. There were quail in Egypt. But this flaky stuff? They ask one another, “What is it?”

The Israelites felt a need for food. They turned to their intermediary with their complaint. God also heard their grumbling too. Most of the time, we do not feel like we need a “Moses” to bring our prayers to God. We bring our prayers and our complaints, cries, and pleas directly to God. Sometimes we pray in community, trusting others to also lift our prayers to God. And sometimes we do want someone to pray for us on our behalf. But overall, we are good at bringing our prayers and petitions to the Lord our God.

But like the Israelites, we are not always good at seeing God’s answers to our prayers. Yes, they’d even been told that God would give bread in the morning. Moses still had to tell them, “This is the bread that the Lord has given you to eat.” While most of the promises to us in scripture are not this specific, we are told that God hears and responds to our prayers. But when the “bread” doesn’t look like what we’re used to or when it is not what we expected, we can misunderstand the answer or we can be disappointed in it. Sometimes we miss the answer altogether. And yet, God is faithful. When we too choose to remain faithful, we can consistently look back and we can see that God’s response was exactly what we needed in that moment. For these truths, we say, thanks be to God!

Prayer: Lord God, we are so willing to lay our wants and needs before you. Help us to be just as willing to see how you provide and to trust in your wisdom and plan. Guide us to seek your will and way just as eagerly as we await your answers to our prayers. Amen.